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...PROFILE

Call me: Alicia
Came into this world on: 2 Dec
Zodiac: Dog
Horoscope: Sagittarius

Schools:
<3 Greenwood Primry School (2001)
<3 Admiralty Primry School (2002-2003)
<3 Nanyang Primary School (2004-2006)
<33 Nanyang Girls' High School (2007-Present)

Hobbies:

  1. Reading
  2. Warching TV and anime
  3. Blogging
  4. Playing com games
  5. Reading Manga
  6. Eating
  7. Listening to music
  8. Taking random scenery pictures

Loves:
  1. my family...
  2. All my frenz!!!
  3. NYGH
  4. 213'o8!!!

Hates:
  1. Yucky food
  2. Failing tests
  3. Traitors
  4. Excessive Noise
  5. Bullies

...WISHES

WISH ONE: A laptop
WISH TWO: No enemies
WISH THREE: Great storybooks :)

...LINKS

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#Audrey
# Celine
# Charlotte
# Jean
#Carissa
# Tessa
#Simhwee
#Sarah
#Venus
#Lynn
#Jingting

~APCG!!! <3
#Sally
#Song Sim
#Shun Xiang
#Zi Cong

~NYPS friends~
#Chloe
#Lee Voon

~ADMPS friends~
#Samuel
#Hui Hui

~Family~
#Sister

~Other blogs~
#My class! <3
#113'o8
#NYPS GEP'o6

# ICE ANGEL
 #XIAXUE
#SASSYJAN
#BLINKYMUMMY
#DAWNYANG

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    Tuesday, July 29, 2008


    I'm still in the totally post APCG mood. I really dunno but APCG seemed such a long time away. But at the same time, I am missing everything about APCG, even the totally bland and ingredient-less fried rice we ate on the first meal. Still really depressing. Cuz i think that APCG was like one of the only times I ever opened up with people I did not interact much with. Now, Group 9 seems more like my frens than some of my frens ever would be. And I can show my true character. That was one of the best things ever.

    I miss shouting for Group 9 to gather.

    I miss holding the placard up till my hands ached.

    I miss talking with the participants in Group 9.

    I miss complaining about how we had to wait so long for the bus.

    And everything else I did with Group 9 as a student leader.

    Even missing being called Jane and Wonder Woman occassionally.


    Basically, just everything. And Group 9! I was happier during that time than how I could be in school sometimes. At least people cared about me. Though I was actually supposed to care for the group more. But it really is a mutual thing, I guess...

    Anyway, toady was a horrible day at school. Just passed for history. Thank goodness my assignment was good.

    I felt really left out, of like every single thing in my class. Some people just hate me, I can tell that. I'm not exactly blind.And no matter how much of an introvert I am, I still want frens and I still want to be liked. It's human nature. And I have some really really good frens who cared about me, not how I appear outwardly. I know that sometimes I might be a little not responsive, or that I just don't do things. I feel really sorry about that. But if I had a choice, I would do things good. Like how people are quite unresponsive about the cross-country. I could have gone, on the risk of collapsing, humiliating the class and everything. But I didn't. It's called weighing the pros and cons. And I delayed submitting the names. I know that I'm really horrible at PE and whoever ends up with me as a partner for any single sport will get fed up, and somewhat hate me. I know that some people just don't want to work with me for unknown reasons. Whatever they might be, I can still see how you don't like me and hate me.

    I admit I am really quiet in class, and I don't contribute much to discussions. But I try, at least I think I do. It's just that when i get a point, i don't get to speak. And when i am asked to speak, I don't know what to say. And that I might be too quiet. I know I love to procrastinate and probably have a lot of bad habits. I am trying to change, but well, the important word is trying. It's a slow progress. I know I appear transparent and the class can do well without me. I accpet that, i guess. It's what I learnt to do. I wasn't like that in p3. I was like the most popular one in class, with loads of friends, more talkative than now, for sure. But i hate adjusting to new environments. And when I do that, my whole personality changes. I am still figuring out why I changed.

    And i want to change back. But I just don't know how to, or where to start from. It's a matter of habit. I can't say I would be more extroverted, but starting today, I am going to put in my best effort, in speaking up, in not procrastinating, in being back to the relatively extroverted person I was before. It's not a guarantee I would succeed, but at least it's a start.

    From APCG, I did learn that the only way to make friends is to be one. I don't have that many friends at this point in time, only a few close ones, like Hannah, Zexi, Chloe.. Though I don't really interact with them much, they are willing to listen to my troubles, understand me. And I really love them for that. They are my really true friends, who I call friends. People who interact with me only when it is necessary, well, not really my friends. But I will try to get along more with my classmates, and anyone else I know.

    Wow, pretty long. But I guesss I might be a little emotional today.

    But what I just said is true. I will try to speak up, get along better with my class. And it is not just crap. I really mean it. If you think I don't, then I can't do anything......

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